some days, my life seems like a blank canvas, and it inspires me. anything can happen, with anyone, anywhere. there are moments that i believe change your life. there’s potential for this. i can live anywhere, and do almost anything, and dream big dreams.
and some days, my life seems like a blank canvas, and it freaks me out. i can do anything, and live anywhere, and be anything, and i have this very small, confined, rigid idea, in my head, of what or who i would like to be. it’s fixed. it’s steady. it’s sure. it’s unyielding.
i don’t know what’s going to happen. in some respects, i’m elated. i’m excited. i’m grateful and happy and can’t wait. and in some senses, i’m scared to death. completely. what if things don’t turn out the way i thought they would…at all? fear can be immobilizing.